Soundtrack for Fall & Forgetting ~ Michelle Menting

 

It’s raining and autumn. Outside

everything dark crushes color

 

with blows of wind and branches.

The perfect setting for a day

 

inside with wool & wine, and seclusion—

that desired kind.

 

I’ve learned the plucks of a banjo

can rhythm the scratch of tree limbs.

 

A light Béla Fleck—soft haphazardness,

the soundtrack for fall and forgetting.

 

Only a squirrel—the culprit of a rasping,

a sound closer to pines scraping

 

house shingles, painted wood siding—

grips the window screen, scuttles

 

to the pane, back and up, clings

to the mesh with vampire-like claws.

 

A voyeur wanting in

in the worst way.

    

I know the act of clinging

has no scent, no sound—it’s static,

 

but still this house reeks of dead fruit: pears

spotted and moldy, fuzzed to their stems.

 

Is it a law of nature that everything

empty must fill again?

    

All week, I packed and sealed,

stuffed suits into bags but folded

 

the towels I’d later unfold, wrap around

my clean arms and shoulders.

 

A temporary comfort, like wool & merlot

and that myth of solitude.